“There seems to be so much to reflect on about the past 3 weeks."
This morning I feel very contented and still in a daze after getting into my size 12 jeans, first thing I said this morning was “size 12, wow!” To be honest I never thought I would drop down a size in such a short time, because of my PCOS, I’ve just tried to accept over time that my body will take longer to drop weight because of insulin resistance.
It’s weird because I’m now in new territory with my body and it feels like I have been through a rebirthing process. To be honest, for the first time in my life, when I looked in the mirror yesterday I felt like a real woman was looking back at me and not a fat, unhappy, lost girl. One of the women I work with told me yesterday that I looked like a completely different person and I feel it, I’ve got a new life and I’m excited!
One of the scariest things about the program has been facing up to how worthless I have felt about myself pretty much all my life and learning to accept myself as I am and to be happy in the moment. I’ve spent so much time in my life putting on a brave face and pretending to be ok when I’m not and done more for other people than myself and I knew I had to stop that. That is changing but there are still a lot of things I need to let go of but I know that will take time but at least I have started.
There have been times where I have doubted myself along the way in the program and just thought – what if at the end of this I haven’t changed at all, what if I look the same in my after pictures as I did before? But then I just had to think logically because if I wasn’t changing, why are my clothes bigger?? Strange how your mind can try to trip you up.
There are so many highlights for me from the program. From day 1 I have just felt supported in a way I have never been before by you and the ladies in the group. Every day I have enjoyed all the meals, loved experimenting with new food and feeling in control of what I have eaten rather than food controlling me. The emails and videos have been a great resource, both educating and motivating me along the way.
In a nutshell, the program has been absolutely, bloody f***ing amazing! (I know you appreciate a bit of swearing!)
Seriously though, thank you Rachael for all the love you have put into this program, you should be very proud of it.
It must be incredibly hard to do what you do on a daily basis, I can almost feel the resistance at times in the group as there are a lot of women there who need the program but for whatever reason are just too scared to sign up. It must be really frustrating for you but please keep going, you are creating a movement really, but because you are creating something so different to all these diets that people are brainwashed with, it is probably going to take a bit of time to build momentum but you will get there, I really believe that.
I can definitely see you having an intro to your programs published as a book by someone by Hay House (love all their self-help authors, you would really fit in) as your approach is about wellness and wholeness rather than just the bog standard diet and exercise regimes that people push simply to make money. I’m excited where you can go with this so please never, ever, give up, you are really needed by a lot of people.
If there is anything I can ever do to help you to get the word out just let me know.
I don’t know why but for whatever reason every time I email you I end up writing an essay, weird how all this stuff just seems to tumble out of me, if you have made it to the end, well done!
Thanks again for everything!” - Vicky Lysons (August 2016)